Help or hurt??

Last night, after coming back from the last day at my job (switch to a different company) I got into a arguement with my father about living conditions. In his mind, he told me that he wanted me out the house (which he lives in alone with my dog Smokey) by October. In my mind, I wasn't going to stay past the first of the new year. The arguement came up cause I told him in February 2 of my friends (my old room mate from college and my best friend) are getting a townhouse. Its going to start building in October. I was happy cause I get to live with two people I trust and it won't be too far from my job. He states in a asshole manner that "its not quick enough", which gets me on the offensive. We go back and forth and I end up leaving the house, calling my best friend and going to Best Buy. (Its a good way for me to cool off)

The point is clear he wants me out the house, which is cool, but he isn't supportive about it at all, which is why I am highly pissed. Instead of being happy, he turns the asshole cheek. The house he has is big, 4 bed rooms, 2 1/2 baths and only him in there...doesn't make sense.

So this has caused me to look at places now, which I will begin to scope out this upcoming weekend. I might opt to live by myself to be "independent"; even though its without its withdraws. Checking the prices in my area, I am shocked that I could afford it, but messes up my plans of paying off my loans within my 20's.

Back to the title, this recent event has really crushed my relationship with my dad, for the reasons that there has only been 4 people in my family to graduate college, and I am the second man behind him. I don't think I asked too much while in college, I had a job and paid for college after my first year. Bought a car without him and got a decent job with options to advance, yet I get shafted by the one person who has been down this road before...hurts my heart to say the least. Then I look at it, I make about 50% of what my dad makes currently, and he can "see" my banking account (which he pointed out in our arguement) and I have a REAL steady girlfriend who comes over during the weekends. He has mentioned that he has a problem with both, which I think is utter bullshit. I don't know if he is jealous of how I good (or lack there of) I am doing in life in general, or if I am being that big of a problem. When I would come home for the summer during semesters, we never had his problem, so thats why I am leaving towards the latter...

Music now adays....

I can honestly say I have a passion for music. Be it country, rock, blues, hip hop, etc...music can relate to any circumstance that you might be facing in life. I believe there is a song about everything known in this world, from being in love to losing it, not having a job to hitting the lottery. Even though I appeal to every genre, the majority of the songs and albums I have are from hip hop, r&b, soul and rap; which brings me to my post...music (in the sense of those genre mentioned) is awful to the point of sheer maddness.

Need examples? After a day at the office, I normally come home and watch PTI (Pardon The Interruption) on ESPN. A show where two sports casters debate about the sports topics of the day. The show mostly deals with sports, and is known to dip into pop culture with some of its stories. On the show yesterday, Tony Kornheiser proceed to say "I am going to "whoop this trick" in toss up, (A game where the debates are about a single issue and they discuss it). Whoop this trick is a reference to the movie and song from the "Hustle and Flow" movie, which has a song entitled whoop that trick. I bet you can guess what the song is about. Rap music (different from hiphop) is becoming so degrading that it hurts me to even listen to it. This is from a person who's first rap album was Snoop's "Doggstyle" and Onyx "Bacdafucup". Not to suggest that those songs on those albums are any better, they were just during a time when violence wasn't a mainstay in rap.

If you turn on local hiphop and r&b stations, you will probably hear Webbie "Gimme that", Ying Yang Twinz "Whiper Song" and 50 Cent "Just a lil bit". It pains me that our youth has to hear these songs on the radio 24/7, then when they turn on the television they see the videos with clad dressed woman shaking it and shaking it well. R&B isn't any better, with groups that barely are even teens are talking about making love and having sex...you can't be serious??!! The other day, prime time TV I turned to BET to see a naked (also the title of the song and album) Marcus Houston. I mean come on! I don't want to see a naked man on the TV during this hour!

What happened to the Boyz II Men appeal of singing and looking good while doing it? I remember wanting to dress like them cause they looked good. But now, its designer everything, doo-rags and utter "crap dress".

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