Making my own shoes...
Its been awhile since I last had a good 'ol conversation with my blog; seeing that tonight at work nothing really big is going on and I have "down time" so my mind sits and reflects, I think its a good time to write it all down and share it as well.
Since the last time we've chatted, i've relocated to North Carolina, got a new job, become an uncle and over all have matured to some aspect. I will break all those down, which will become the basis of this entry.
North Carolina; been here a week and loving it. The south is very different from the hustle and bustle of the north. Going to places might take you some time, but its because of the distance, not the bad drivers and random happenings. Where my fiancee and I relocated, its like the Mini-Northern VA of North Carolina. I have everything I need in life within 10 miles of me. Work is about 20-25 minutes away, and 25 miles away. When commuting from my fathers to NGS, it was 28 miles; took 1 1/2 hours.
Also, the people down here are nice and easy going, I haven't been flicked off nor flicked anyone else off on the roads yet! But even though I am where I want to be at in life, its nothing without its down falls. I miss my friends and my family, even though its 3 1/2 hours away, its not being able to pop in and see them when ever I wanted to. I guess this feeling will subside with time, but now its like "weekend.....call......damn....."
Speaking of weekends; for normal people that would classify "Saturday and Sunday"; and really half of Friday cause you know you don't work after 3pm on Fridays! For me, Wednesday and Thursdays.... Sucks, and sucks bad. That's a great way to sum in my job right now. Shift work is not for BMass, not one bit. I can see having work M-F at certain times, but working weekends is throwing the deer off the hill *Country slang #1*. The actually work environment isn't too impressive either, I work with one other person during my shift and I look at two burn-in plasma screens that have the status of the Network on them. If something goes wrong, I notify someone and they fix it, if nothing is wrong then......continue to wait til something goes wrong. This is a FAR cry from what I was doing at NGS, and I am continually trying to find other opportunities so I can have my weekends back! Until then, I will get paid a undisclosed amount of money to sit here and look at a couple of TVs.
Well, you might think to yourself, "You gettin paid, your weekends are gone, but you gettin paid"; not the case anymore, I thought I could deal with it for a little while (a year maybe), but someone came into my life that changed that though 180 degrees. Her name is.....Mariah (MAY)!!!! My niece, my "lil diva" as I will begin to call her soon. The weekend before I left for the NC, my sister gave birth to my lil diva, happy wasn't a word that could describe me then nor now, cause every time I mention her I feel so....blah (can't think of a fitting word). I want to be a great uncle, much like I want to be a great father, but I don't see that happening when I have two days off in the middle of the week! I remember talking to my sis about Mariah and me saying that I am not going to spoil her, well, that went out the window! I want to buy things for her, want her to be excite to come down and see Uncle B. I want all that, but when I call "home" and talk to everyone up north, its like I am second nature, hurts cause I never wanted to be in that situation, but also makes me shift things around to change that.
Guess that's the part of growing up, you need to take care of yourself and secure your future, then make a genuine effort to impose that on loved ones and family so that everyone can get a sip of that Sweet Tea *country slang #2* :P
Since the last time we've chatted, i've relocated to North Carolina, got a new job, become an uncle and over all have matured to some aspect. I will break all those down, which will become the basis of this entry.
North Carolina; been here a week and loving it. The south is very different from the hustle and bustle of the north. Going to places might take you some time, but its because of the distance, not the bad drivers and random happenings. Where my fiancee and I relocated, its like the Mini-Northern VA of North Carolina. I have everything I need in life within 10 miles of me. Work is about 20-25 minutes away, and 25 miles away. When commuting from my fathers to NGS, it was 28 miles; took 1 1/2 hours.
Also, the people down here are nice and easy going, I haven't been flicked off nor flicked anyone else off on the roads yet! But even though I am where I want to be at in life, its nothing without its down falls. I miss my friends and my family, even though its 3 1/2 hours away, its not being able to pop in and see them when ever I wanted to. I guess this feeling will subside with time, but now its like "weekend.....call......damn....."
Speaking of weekends; for normal people that would classify "Saturday and Sunday"; and really half of Friday cause you know you don't work after 3pm on Fridays! For me, Wednesday and Thursdays.... Sucks, and sucks bad. That's a great way to sum in my job right now. Shift work is not for BMass, not one bit. I can see having work M-F at certain times, but working weekends is throwing the deer off the hill *Country slang #1*. The actually work environment isn't too impressive either, I work with one other person during my shift and I look at two burn-in plasma screens that have the status of the Network on them. If something goes wrong, I notify someone and they fix it, if nothing is wrong then......continue to wait til something goes wrong. This is a FAR cry from what I was doing at NGS, and I am continually trying to find other opportunities so I can have my weekends back! Until then, I will get paid a undisclosed amount of money to sit here and look at a couple of TVs.
Well, you might think to yourself, "You gettin paid, your weekends are gone, but you gettin paid"; not the case anymore, I thought I could deal with it for a little while (a year maybe), but someone came into my life that changed that though 180 degrees. Her name is.....Mariah (MAY)!!!! My niece, my "lil diva" as I will begin to call her soon. The weekend before I left for the NC, my sister gave birth to my lil diva, happy wasn't a word that could describe me then nor now, cause every time I mention her I feel so....blah (can't think of a fitting word). I want to be a great uncle, much like I want to be a great father, but I don't see that happening when I have two days off in the middle of the week! I remember talking to my sis about Mariah and me saying that I am not going to spoil her, well, that went out the window! I want to buy things for her, want her to be excite to come down and see Uncle B. I want all that, but when I call "home" and talk to everyone up north, its like I am second nature, hurts cause I never wanted to be in that situation, but also makes me shift things around to change that.
Guess that's the part of growing up, you need to take care of yourself and secure your future, then make a genuine effort to impose that on loved ones and family so that everyone can get a sip of that Sweet Tea *country slang #2* :P
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