The "Nigga" Experience

(Fair warning, this post is VERY heavy on racism, people take heed)


This is an exert from a Goodie Mobb song called, "The Experience"

"a nigga could overstand if he only understood
I'm sick of lyin' I'm sick of glorifyin' dyin'
I'm sick of not trying, shit I'm sick of being a nigga
destiny sent me to this dread and she said she felt led
to offer me some wisdom from this notebook she read
and it said that right then the black man's downfall
was not know that we were not ever niggers at all, hmm
and she looked deeply into my eyes and said brother don't you know
you complain about being black,
when they mad coz they can't be black no mo'
so many black men out here trying to be nigga
keeping it real to the point that they dying to be nigga
when in actuality the fact is you ain't a nigga because you black
you a nigga cause of how you act
but, you don't want me to tell you the truth, so I'ma lie to you
make it sound fly to you huh, huh,
you don't wanna hear the truth, so I'ma lie to you

I'm a racist. Your a racist. Your NO different from me, be it that we are both racist; or being that we are made up of the same thing, a brain, heart, lungs, etc. The only thing that is different between us is our upbringing and our color. I eat when I am hungry as your do to, so what is making the us look at each other with tensions that I am smaller/bigger than you? Why do we continue to think that someone is below us cause of what history tells us? Why do hold your purse tight or why do you snicker at people playing golf?

I'm not going to lie and try to answer questions that have been around since the beginning of "our" book and nor am I going to try to have a blog where I tell people that racism is wrong and that we should stop judging each other, cause honestly, thats all we can do now. Our time is up with trying to solve the issue by excusing ones race because "there daddy said coloreds are evil or the white man doesn't give the black man opportunities". Being that I am from the current generation, I think that fighting for ones race is dead, because we don't even know what race we are in the first place. I look at myself, and see a black man, an african can look at me and see an african-american, a white person can look at me and see me as colored. Is there a difference? Can I be all three of those, or do I have the ability to choose?

In reality, I didn't nor did you. I am black cause my mom and dad are black, they are black cause their moms and dads where black. Thus, I am black. If I drive a BMW, I am black or if I drive a Volvo, I am black. I am black if I am on the basketball court or if I am playing tennis or golf. There is nothing in this world that is going to change that. Not even Ice Cube and his "painters" can change that.

Racism is nothing more than a way of categorizing ones actions due to their skin tone, the sad thing is that with my skin tone, "we" have a bad rep coming out, so in order to change that we need to overcome, not fight and diss other races, its to clean up our image. There are people who you would least expect it doing that at this moment, take for example sports, we have 2 black sisters in tennis, a black brother in gold and a black speed ice skater. Honestly, if those people weren't in those sports you would care less, but every time you turn on CNN, ESPN or the local news, you feel pride and happiness that Tiger is winning the tournaments, or the Williams sisters are playing each other in the finals or that the black speed skater has won a gold medal. Those brothers and sisters are starting their own categories, cleaning up our image and making the advances so that blacks are regarded as only basketball and boxing atheletes (even though we do those well I might add).